Hello Dan! It’s Gulnaz from Russia. Elia and me went to the jungle after Iquitos so didn’t have any internet connection to write you. How are you? Would like to say thank you for ceremony what we had and your generous host! Down I write about my experience.
I heard a lot about Ayahuasca. Many friends tried it and have different thoughts about it. I always felt if I gonna drink this medicine it’s gonna be in the mother-land of plant – into the Amazon. We found (I travel with my boyfriend) center Dawn of Eden in Iquitos by chance and after meeting and chatting with Denis and Dan we were confirm to drink our first Ayahuasca there. Dan is really lovely man very smart and clever. He is open to help, understanding, have a huge experience with science and meditation. Dan also have a lot of practice of using medicine plants specially Ayahuasca. Was really interesting talk with him. Denis has amazing story of his life. The way how he came to Ayahuasca and become warrior just awesome. I hope one day he will decide to write a book about it.
Well coming closer to my experience. Before to start ceremony we talked a lot about how it’s safe what to expect and everything and for me it was good because under the effect of Ayahuasca I couldn’t control much what was going on. How Dan said right – you become very open. And it’s important to have a good and trustable shaman! We were lucky for it. So on Tuesday evening we had our ceremony and it was far, far away what we expect. Ayahuasca go deep inside you, it’s know everything about you. First when medicine start work I was scare as I said before you are very open. I was trying to fight with my mind trying to stop my feelings but it was just no possible to do it, you can’t fight with Ayahuasca because basically you fighting with yourself! It’s took me a while to accept and give up to the plant and actually it is the best. Ayahuasca shows me my vices in which thoughts I’m looping myself. It shows me connection with my mother and with my boyfriend. I was feeling like them, what they are thinking, why they behaving like this. When I finally understand and accept what Ayahuasca teaching me I vomite. Believe me that was the best part of the evening. After this I felt very tranquil, warm and in total peace. The rest of the ceremony I was in this meditation mood. Ayahuasca it’s very powerful medicine. It is showing you truth about yourself. It is cleaning you. But you should be strong to see all of it. I’m glad that I try Ayahuasca now I can correct myself and be more happy actually I’m already more happy. I’m thankful to Dan and Denis for this unbelievable experience.
I am Elia, I would like to say that my experience with Ayahuasca it is one of the things that I would suggest to friends and family, it is a very deep work with body and mind.
The first thirty minutes, a strong feeling of nausea, and suddenly a very powerful connection with my inner animal (Jaguar) who was purging out of my entire body, a part of what it was stuck into me.
After few seconds I start feeling very light, and my mind from having a kind of black vision begins getting tranquil and then the vision of something beautiful and very colorful as a mandala appeared in front of me. Thank you.